
Welcome!
Here is the journal of a newlywed in her early 20's in Central Alberta, Canada. Moving to Calgary during August.
In September you will get to hear my ramblings about going to University also. I am in my 3rd year of Natural Sciences (minor: Biology and Chemistry). I switched programs after 2 years in the Education (teaching) program.
Mostly my daily happenings, as well as some articles and quotes I found interesting enough to share!
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Im now trying to catch up on all the housework from the weekend...I promise to return later today
and do some catching up.
Just out blog hopping and found yours. I hope your wedding is everything you ever dreamed of. Stop in sometime!

***You Should Weigh 155***
If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight.
If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!
How Much Do You Weigh?
http://www.blogthings.com/howmuchdoyouweighquiz/
Well, these are entertaining! There's a lot more quizzes to take too. It's funny that I "should" weigh 155. I weighed myself for the first time last week in several months (we just had a scale given to us). I weighed 127 lbs. That's the heaviest I think I've ever been, although I don't weigh myself much. I'm sure glad I don't weigh 155! I know people are cursing me for weighing only 127, but I can't help but feel unhappy about it still. I was happy when my weight was around 112 - 117. I'm 5'6", so that seemed good for me. I gained about 10 lbs in a year after I moved in with Chris. Granted I was out on my own for the first time too, and it's hard to stay slim when you don't have mom cooking for you!
Weight is such a touchy subject... I have irritable bowel syndrome, which causes me to be bloated a lot, which makes me very self-conscious and makes me feel fat. At least Chris is there to tell me I still look great, despite the fact I look 6 months pregnant! It's usually the worst after supper in the evenings, and doesn't go away until I sleep it off. Sometimes I'm still bloated the next morning, if I over-indulged. Very annoying.
I know a lot of people have a "magic" number on the scale, that if they go over it, they immediatley start dieting. I don't know what that would be for me. I already feel like I should start dieting. I am not disciplined enough to stick with a diet tho. I just try to watch what I eat. What I really should start doing is exercising more. I used to be much more active, and that's probably why I gained weight. I miss being in-shape a lot. I have tried probably 4 different gyms in 4 years, and have never been able to stick with it. I enjoy being outside and going for walks, hikes, and bikerides. Although I don't have a bike anymore, so scratch that one. In the winter I get very lazy, because I hate walking when it's cold and windy. I'd like to see what group classes the university has to offer. I would rather be in an exercise class, than on my own. It's just more motivating. Plus, as aweful as this is, I love comparing myself to others. I think a lot of people do this, they just don't admit it. Women are always checking out the competition! 
Sometimes I wonder why I can't just be satisfied with my body. It is a hard thing to come to terms with though. Maybe it could be immaturity, but I know a lot of women of ALL ages who struggle with their body image. Weight loss is not a billion-dollar industry for nothing! My friend Jeanette told me a few months ago she weighed 170 lbs (she's about 5'4"), and she didn't care. She is happy with who she is, and she's not going to try and change herself to meet someone else's ideals. I am so happy for her, and her confidence really shows through. I wish I had that confidence, but I fake it, and I think I fake it well. I think people would be surprised if they knew how insecure I really am. I feel really, really good after having a good workout, that exerciser's "high".
It is just so hard to motivate myself to keep with it!
Even though it is so easy to point fingers, I truly believe Hollywood and the fashion and advertising industries are to blame for many women's poor self-images and self-esteem. Everywhere you look, they are showing you it is "normal" to be super-skinny.
How can us people down here feel good about ourselves when presented with these images? It's not even rational to tell people to stop watching TV and movies and reading magazines, so it'll never end as long as this trend continues. Although, when you look back at history, and what was perceived as beautiful, the image of beauty has gone through many transformations. Even when looking at other cultures, and thier visions of beauty, it varies a lot. I think the most sickening version of beauty is the Playboy and Porno industry women. Platinum-blond, fake tanned, dark make-up, huge breasts, long legs, and skimpy outfits.
I feel so sorry for young girls now, looking at those women. It is not hard to realize that men drool over these women, and when you're a teenager, you want nothing more than to be liked and of course, desired. These standards are just so unrealistic, no wonder there are so many young girls and women with eating disorders. When I was in high school I knew of at least 4 girls with anorexia, 1 with bulimia, and several over-eaters. I know there were more undiagnosed also. Personally, I was OK with myself in high school. I didn't care at all in grade 9 and 10, and then in grade 11 and 12 I lost my puberty weight and was suddenly skinny and attractive. I just hid my problems with drugs or alcohol, which isn't any healthier. Well, it will definitly be interesting to see if this "image" of beauty changes over the next few decades! I promise, I will be paying attention.
As for myself, well it's a one-day-at-a-time process, and I am trying...slowly...