Well we're moved in, but there are still several boxes to unpack. I hate unpacking. Packing was much easier! Oh well, I can't wait for it all to be done with so we can finally "settle in". University orientation is Sept 7 and 8, and classes start on the 11th. It's coming up so fast! Yay! I'm getting really excited to start school. I also have to find myself a part-time job... We're still struggling with our finances a little right now.

I got so upset at my mom on Wednesday... I was all done packing everything and cleaning everything in the apartment and I just had our old kitchen table, two chairs, and some dishes and linens left that I wanted to give away to the Salvation Army. My car was packed full and Chris was in Calgary with his truck, so I couldn't move it, and it had to be out by noon on Thursday. I went to my parents house and asked my brother (my mom was there too) if he could take the stuff to the Salvation Army or Value Villiage. He was sitting on his butt on the computer not doing anything anyways. He just outright refused!! I was just shocked at how he was so unwilling to help me! After everything both Chris and I have done for him! (That's a different story). Then I asked if I could at least use his truck to do it myself, and he said "ya, whatever, I don't care..." Then my mom stepped in and started yelling at me for "assuming Dustin (my brother) wasn't busy and could help me", and yelling at me about how we procrastinated until the last minute to finish everything, and then "just expect my family to bail me out!" I couldn't believe it! I was so hurt and taken aback, I just didn't even have a response. Of course I exected my family to help me! That's what families are for (or so I thought)! My mom helped quite a bit with cleaning, Dustin helped one afternoon of moving stuff to Calgary, then once he got to our place, he went downstairs and had a nap, then went home! (Gee, thanks). And my dad didn't lift a finger, but I didn't really expect him to either. I thought this would be a small thing Dustin could do for me (it wouldve taken a maximum of 1/2 an hour), but NOOO it was the biggest deal in the world, and mom defended him too! I was just so upset I couldn't speak. So I just left their house and called Chris, close to crying. So he called his house and asked if anyone could pick up the stuff in our apartment and take it to Salvation Army. Of course his dad and littlest brother offered to help out right away! Well, at least I know now which family I can depend on when I need it! And who I'm going to help out when they need it...

We are going to Chris's parent's house tomorrow for a family dinner (they have one almost every Sunday). Should be good. They really seem to want us to sleep over, which is a little strange, but Chris seems to want to too. The only thing is, I would be stranded all day Monday, because Chris and his brothers are all working. I don't know. I could get him to drop me off somewhere like Chapters. I love browsing through books and magazines (I know, I'm a geek!). We'll see I guess... Anyways, my mom called me today and I left something behind in her truck that I need to get, so I told her we're coming back to Red Deer tomorrow and I could pick it up then. I am still mad at her, and she just acts like nothing's wrong (she always does that). It's so annoying. I can never stay mad long though, I hate holding grudges, it just brings you down and makes you hateful. I can forgive, but I NEVER forget. My mom has hurt me more times than anyone else, and if it weren't for my forgiveness we would not have the relationship we do. I am getting sick of being hurt by her though. I don't even think she knows she hurt me as much as she did however. I don't know if I should bring it up and risk starting a fight, or just move on... It makes me so angry though...

Anyways, my mom asked me what time we're planning on being in Red Deer, and why we're coming, etc. I was reluctant to giver her a time, because I really don't know! And I asked why she wanted to know what time and she said "Cuz I'd like to spend some time with you guys!" I wanted to scream WELL, I DON'T WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU! But of course I didn't. I kind of darted around the subject, and all of a sudden she got all emotional and said "well, if it's too much of a bother, then don't". She just switches her mood so fast, I can never keep up! So I told her I'd call her tomorrow morning and let her know if I have time to spend with her. SHIT! Why do I do this to myself??? I'm going to have to see her and pretend I'm happy to. I guess I do usually like spending time with her, but I'm still hurt by her, and I want her to know that. But I guess she won't know if I don't tell her, and if I just avoid her, then she'll feel hurt. Two wrongs don't make a right. I don't know what I'll do.

Well, it's 10:30 pm. I should either get to work and unpack/put away more crap, or just get ready for bed. I'll see what Chris wants to do I guess. Goodnight!