Well, I've been feeling pretty lazy and uncreative lately, so I've been neglecting my blog!  Not too much is new... school takes up a lot of my time and I just started a part-time job too. I've been feeling pretty down lately. I have zero energy. I just can't get excited about anything. School has been really disappointing to me so far. I'm used to getting good grades without really trying too hard, and I really haven't been doing well at all. I'm failing calculus, and I'm so behind because I haven't been able to grasp any concepts, and of course they build on each other. But, I have set up a private tutor. I meet with him next Friday, so hopefully he will be able to help me out! I did really shitty on my Primate Studies term test (57%). Which was a big blow, because I walked out of there thinking I did really good! I did do well on my Geology term test (80.5%), so that is the only good news. I still have my Chem and Calculus midterms coming up.

I'm really frustrated at the state of my house. It's so messy, the dishes just keep on piling up, and there's STILL unpacked boxes lying around! I keep telling myself I'm going to tackle these problems, but something comes up, or I just loose motivation and get overwhelmed by looking at everything. So nothing gets done. And Chris is no help. He does the occassional load of dishes, but he never actually gets them all done. He just does enought to get us by for a week! We're such slobs.

I'm getting pretty depressed about our financial situation also. We have zero spending money and we're behind on bills every month, and our credit cards are racked up (but we've put a hold on using them anymore, to at least stop that spiral). I'm not used to this at all. The worst is our rent, it went up from $500/month to $1225/month. Granted, we moved from a one bdrm basement apartment to a 4 bdrm house w/ a garage. But it's killer. And my car insurance went up by almost $80/month just because I moved to Calgary! I couldn't believe it! And we're not used to the large utility bills that come w/ the house either. I'm pretty sure it's really poorly insulated too, so that should be fun when it really starts to get cold! I think the worst thing for me is giving up little pleasures like buying coffees or lunches. I have to think about every purchase, and if it's not absolutly nessassary, I have to say "no". Even if it's only $5-$10, that will still add up. It's so depressing. It makes me want to scream sometimes. And Chris's salary is so variable from month to month, which I guess comes with owning your own business. I just wish we could count on it more. And he just keeps adding more expenses to his company.

Plus I'm missing all my friends and family that're in Red Deer. I mean we still keep in contact, but it's not the same as actually seeing them. Chris and I are going up to Red Deer tomorrow for the night, so that should be good. My mom wants me to go to the Women's show there. Should be interesting. Chris and his dad want to go too, because they have a "guys" area with exotic cars, big screens, popcorn, and beer. Fun. (for them).

Anyways, Chris is bugging me to come to bed. Goodnight.